a confession

If you ask me a question

"are you okay?"

I probably will answer

"Cool"

though my heart says "I'm not.. I'm trying to be okay"

such a complicated matter

when it comes to heart

at least that what I feel 

I never imagined being hurt

I never imagined being alone

However ....

time goes by...

I cannot control any situation in my life

everything seems so extra ordinary

beyond my imagination

beyond my knowledge

it starts freaking me out

it makes me feel like 'life is not fun'

it drives me think 'life is painful'

it takes more than 24 hours to realize that life is more than that..

it takes months to finally get the ideas of being happy is not always being perfect

since perfect never exists

I need a big courage from my own self to eventually believe that my mind is worthy

I should stop thinking about every issue in my life

so that I can get a better chance to change the things

well..

it's my confession about what I have been feeling recently

Life is actually not just 'being alive'

Life is precisely about 'taking and giving'

to me.. 

this time..

giving more is a brilliant idea..

and... saying 'thanks'

is such a marvelous thing... no matter what happen inside our heart.. 

                                                          -ViE