keep on moving....

two years ago I learned how to make a great decision in my life..
two months ago I learned how to accept the risks of that great decision..
two days ago I learned how to deal with everything without making a great risk for the next years..


it looks simple in the beginning.. 
however..


it's not that simple if you are in that position..
things cannot be counted easily..


today.... 
I'm learning something..
no matter what.. we need to listen to our heart..
though logically.. we know that it's not appropriate.. but the bottom line is.. we know the limit..
before it's too late..
because how strong you are..
you cannot go back to the past and change everything...
so let's think..
RIGHT HERE and RIGHT NOW.. 
and feel it as our own moment... 

someone...

I suddenly remember.. someone told me bout this...

Love is something that you can keep inside your heart.. but there are moments when you have to realise that you can't always struggle for it because so many illogical reasons on earth...

I disagree actually..

In my opinion.. love ... is something..

it's such a gift..

God gives it to us.. then we have to manage ourselves .. not only to keep it.. but struggle for it..

well.. that is only a theory.. I think..

However..in reality.. no matter how hard we try to get what we want..in this case love.. if it is not for us.. if it doesn't belong to us.. it will never come back to us.. it will never be ours...

the question is...

can love.. guide the lovers to be together as a couple?

in some situations... the answer is yes!

in other situations... the answer is no!

in my situation... it depends!

how's yours?

hmm...

This Is OnLy 'It'

I still remember those days when I first time wrote a story under the title 'THIS IS IT', it was really fun starting to write it.

However there were moments when I had no power to spare my time to do that...

and the worst..For several times I typed words by words but then I deleted it, as I actually had no idea of what to write.

It was on my head to be precised.. still.. I couldn't let it out ..

Anyway..

This is a note for my beloved friends who faithfully read all of my stories..

and soon, I will continue to write again..

Thank you for being such a good reader ^____^

This Is It.. part 5

15 days Later...

She took her book, journal book, contained stories of her life.

Her finger searched an empty page, when she found one, she held her pen tightly, and started writing.

HiGh And DrY

Today is just like the other day,

He called me on the phone, saying “I miss you”

We have not met for 15 days, it is fine, I mean, we keep in touch every day, it is like seeing him, but cannot touch him.

Somehow, I feel he is around me, and keeps an eye on me all the time.

Somehow, I feel his hands embrace me, and hug me gently.

Somehow, I feel he is here but I just cannot see him.

It was like killing me when he suddenly said “I really want to see you”

I could only answer “see me then, come here”

But all I could hear he whined and said “I’m not going back there to stay, but may be I’ll visit you some time”

Some time, that word was like cutting my heart into pieces, which for me it would be so hard to mend because, I’ve been trying to fix the old pain.

I knew this time would come, but I always hope that it would never end this way.

Is it wrong if I’d better die than living without his love?

Is it wrong?

God, I know You are looking at me now, You are listening to whatever I say, I am begging You..

I need him, as one piece to make those broken pieces stick together.

He completes me.

He is always the part of me.

He will always be the part of me.

Please let us be the one, hand in hand living our love ‘til the end of our time.

Don’t leave me high, and then

leave me dry..

(For him I always adore)

This Is It.. part ........??

It was midnight, and She could not close her eyes.
She still waited for her lover to call.
They always spent the nights together, it was like lying side by side in two different places.

Deep inside their heart, they regretted of being apart for a thousand miles, if only they could stay closer, if only ..


(to be continued)

No TiTtle

I only have eyes for you ...

I don't see anybody but you...

..............................................................................................................................................................................

the lyric from I only have eyes for you by Jamie Cullum.
WoW..

It's such a great day, having many things to do at once,
if you ask me "is it killing you?"
I'd say.. "It's killing me softly"

Then I remember a song from Vanessa Carlton, More than this.
If we could spend a second, a minute, an hour, a day, a night with someone we love, we don't need more than that..
Even if our work drive us crazy.. we never really care about that..

We just have to thank to God for the things He gives..

But... If only we cannot get what we really expect.. then.. Perhaps we need to rethink, review, re.... and re... and re...


last thing .. is to reconsider..

whenever you feel that you have a problem with someone or in doing something then
you need to consider many things...

This Is It.. part 4

It was not about the cake, it was more than that.
Her heart was beating so hard at the time he said good bye.
Jealousy and pain suddenly showed up.
She drove her car slowly, listening to a song by Bread, entitled make it with you.
She could not forget the way he looked at her when he said good bye. She still could listen to his gentle voices while saying "Good Bye dear.."

If only she could change the things, but again, it was just a dream and a hope.
The sky was getting darker, the wind blew harder, the road was more crowded, and she pictured his face on his mind, hoping he would never leave her even in a second.

she talked to herself.
"Love, it hurts and cheers me at the same time, uuuhhffhh.."
Then She drove her Pajero faster, and wished to get home soon.
----------------------------------------00-------------------------------------------

That night, She could not close her eyes, her thought flew to him.
Suddenly her cellphone rang,She smiled widely, and picked up the call. It was from her lover, telling her that he had arrived safe and sound in his lovely house.
They spent only few minutes to chat and then slept.

Outside the window, the air was like whispering the name of love.
The stars shone brightly, as they were trying to make people feel better.
The sky was very dark, but the stars made it so beautiful that seemed gave everyone who saw it a great happiness.
They were like hopes and dreams that wandered around the world.

The earth spun slowly, time went by as everybody closed his/her eyes.
Up above the sky, angels singing a lullaby for every soul who is in love.


(to be continued)