well...

sometimes
you don't realize... when you give too much to others .. there's nothing left for yourself..
but again... when you try not to give to others..
you'll feel even worse..

dilemma ??
perhaps..

a confession

If you ask me a question

"are you okay?"

I probably will answer

"Cool"

though my heart says "I'm not.. I'm trying to be okay"

such a complicated matter

when it comes to heart

at least that what I feel 

I never imagined being hurt

I never imagined being alone

However ....

time goes by...

I cannot control any situation in my life

everything seems so extra ordinary

beyond my imagination

beyond my knowledge

it starts freaking me out

it makes me feel like 'life is not fun'

it drives me think 'life is painful'

it takes more than 24 hours to realize that life is more than that..

it takes months to finally get the ideas of being happy is not always being perfect

since perfect never exists

I need a big courage from my own self to eventually believe that my mind is worthy

I should stop thinking about every issue in my life

so that I can get a better chance to change the things

well..

it's my confession about what I have been feeling recently

Life is actually not just 'being alive'

Life is precisely about 'taking and giving'

to me.. 

this time..

giving more is a brilliant idea..

and... saying 'thanks'

is such a marvelous thing... no matter what happen inside our heart.. 

                                                          -ViE

The Shadow

Dark....
Cold....

My eyes closed
Inside my head
Thousands of pictures 
Flying around 

Faces
Smiling
Crying
Laughing

Fever
Trembling
Painful
Frightened

Running away
Walking away

Dark
Cold

The wind blows my face,
wraps my body, 
tears my heart into pieces,
leaves here


Alone
Hurt

Love

if I ever fall in love again
will I ever fall in love again?


                                                                                                                 -ViE

a NEw Start

whenever we get any problem.. we will feel like every special thing in our life is meaningless though we actually know that a problem comes because we need to be grown up and we need to be better in all the way

one day....
I felt that my life was upside down..
it was like a moment when you were a kid.. and you got a toy you dream.. but then suddenly you lost it..
and your mom said.. "you'll get another toy" and we only nodded and say nothing.. (at least that's what I imagine).

today..
I have decided..
I have to set the things better.. because I believe that everybody deserves to get another chance... like it or not.. the options might be not enjoyable.. but that's how it works.. that's how the life should move on..
none has to live on earth in the under pressures.. or as my friend say.. under the weather..
there are moments of course which make us stay under .. "whatever you name it" however.. as human beings.. people have the power to a greater thing.. a better thing.. and a smarter life..

I might never be able to unwrap all stories in my life.. even though.. my post will always imply the real stories..

whatever I write in my blog.. is based on my real experiences..

welcome back to my blog..  ^^

keep on moving....

two years ago I learned how to make a great decision in my life..
two months ago I learned how to accept the risks of that great decision..
two days ago I learned how to deal with everything without making a great risk for the next years..


it looks simple in the beginning.. 
however..


it's not that simple if you are in that position..
things cannot be counted easily..


today.... 
I'm learning something..
no matter what.. we need to listen to our heart..
though logically.. we know that it's not appropriate.. but the bottom line is.. we know the limit..
before it's too late..
because how strong you are..
you cannot go back to the past and change everything...
so let's think..
RIGHT HERE and RIGHT NOW.. 
and feel it as our own moment... 

someone...

I suddenly remember.. someone told me bout this...

Love is something that you can keep inside your heart.. but there are moments when you have to realise that you can't always struggle for it because so many illogical reasons on earth...

I disagree actually..

In my opinion.. love ... is something..

it's such a gift..

God gives it to us.. then we have to manage ourselves .. not only to keep it.. but struggle for it..

well.. that is only a theory.. I think..

However..in reality.. no matter how hard we try to get what we want..in this case love.. if it is not for us.. if it doesn't belong to us.. it will never come back to us.. it will never be ours...

the question is...

can love.. guide the lovers to be together as a couple?

in some situations... the answer is yes!

in other situations... the answer is no!

in my situation... it depends!

how's yours?

hmm...

This Is OnLy 'It'

I still remember those days when I first time wrote a story under the title 'THIS IS IT', it was really fun starting to write it.

However there were moments when I had no power to spare my time to do that...

and the worst..For several times I typed words by words but then I deleted it, as I actually had no idea of what to write.

It was on my head to be precised.. still.. I couldn't let it out ..

Anyway..

This is a note for my beloved friends who faithfully read all of my stories..

and soon, I will continue to write again..

Thank you for being such a good reader ^____^