9.26.2012

a confession

If you ask me a question
"are you okay?"
I probably will answer
"Cool"
though my heart says "I'm not.. I'm trying to be okay"

such a complicated matter
when it comes to heart
at least that what I feel 

I never imagined being hurt
I never imagined being alone

However ....

time goes by...
I cannot control any situation in my life
everything seems so extra ordinary
beyond my imagination
beyond my knowledge

it starts freaking me out
it makes me feel like 'life is not fun'
it drives me think 'life is painful'

it takes more than 24 hours to realize that life is more than that..
it takes months to finally get the ideas of being happy is not always being perfect
since perfect never exists

I need a big courage from my own self to eventually believe that my mind is worthy
I should stop thinking about every issue in my life
so that I can get a better chance to change the things

well..

it's my confession about what I have been feeling recently

Life is actually not just 'being alive'
Life is precisely about 'taking and giving'

to me.. 
this time..
giving more is a brilliant idea..

and... saying 'thanks'
is such a marvelous thing... no matter what happen inside our heart.. 

                                                          -ViE

The Shadow

Dark....
Cold....

My eyes closed
Inside my head
Thousands of pictures 
Flying around 

Faces
Smiling
Crying
Laughing

Fever
Trembling
Painful
Frightened

Running away
Walking away

Dark
Cold

The wind blows my face,
wraps my body, 
tears my heart into pieces,
leaves here


Alone
Hurt

Love

if I ever fall in love again
will I ever fall in love again?


                                                                                                                 -ViE

9.09.2012

a NEw Start

whenever we get any problem.. we will feel like every special thing in our life is meaningless though we actually know that a problem comes because we need to be grown up and we need to be better in all the way

one day....
I felt that my life was upside down..
it was like a moment when you were a kid.. and you got a toy you dream.. but then suddenly you lost it..
and your mom said.. "you'll get another toy" and we only nodded and say nothing.. (at least that's what I imagine).

today..
I have decided..
I have to set the things better.. because I believe that everybody deserves to get another chance... like it or not.. the options might be not enjoyable.. but that's how it works.. that's how the life should move on..
none has to live on earth in the under pressures.. or as my friend say.. under the weather..
there are moments of course which make us stay under .. "whatever you name it" however.. as human beings.. people have the power to a greater thing.. a better thing.. and a smarter life..

I might never be able to unwrap all stories in my life.. even though.. my post will always imply the real stories..

whatever I write in my blog.. is based on my real experiences..

welcome back to my blog..  ^^