This Is It.. part 5

15 days Later...

She took her book, journal book, contained stories of her life.

Her finger searched an empty page, when she found one, she held her pen tightly, and started writing.

HiGh And DrY

Today is just like the other day,

He called me on the phone, saying “I miss you”

We have not met for 15 days, it is fine, I mean, we keep in touch every day, it is like seeing him, but cannot touch him.

Somehow, I feel he is around me, and keeps an eye on me all the time.

Somehow, I feel his hands embrace me, and hug me gently.

Somehow, I feel he is here but I just cannot see him.

It was like killing me when he suddenly said “I really want to see you”

I could only answer “see me then, come here”

But all I could hear he whined and said “I’m not going back there to stay, but may be I’ll visit you some time”

Some time, that word was like cutting my heart into pieces, which for me it would be so hard to mend because, I’ve been trying to fix the old pain.

I knew this time would come, but I always hope that it would never end this way.

Is it wrong if I’d better die than living without his love?

Is it wrong?

God, I know You are looking at me now, You are listening to whatever I say, I am begging You..

I need him, as one piece to make those broken pieces stick together.

He completes me.

He is always the part of me.

He will always be the part of me.

Please let us be the one, hand in hand living our love ‘til the end of our time.

Don’t leave me high, and then

leave me dry..

(For him I always adore)

This Is It.. part ........??

It was midnight, and She could not close her eyes.
She still waited for her lover to call.
They always spent the nights together, it was like lying side by side in two different places.

Deep inside their heart, they regretted of being apart for a thousand miles, if only they could stay closer, if only ..


(to be continued)

No TiTtle

I only have eyes for you ...

I don't see anybody but you...

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the lyric from I only have eyes for you by Jamie Cullum.
WoW..

It's such a great day, having many things to do at once,
if you ask me "is it killing you?"
I'd say.. "It's killing me softly"

Then I remember a song from Vanessa Carlton, More than this.
If we could spend a second, a minute, an hour, a day, a night with someone we love, we don't need more than that..
Even if our work drive us crazy.. we never really care about that..

We just have to thank to God for the things He gives..

But... If only we cannot get what we really expect.. then.. Perhaps we need to rethink, review, re.... and re... and re...


last thing .. is to reconsider..

whenever you feel that you have a problem with someone or in doing something then
you need to consider many things...

This Is It.. part 4

It was not about the cake, it was more than that.
Her heart was beating so hard at the time he said good bye.
Jealousy and pain suddenly showed up.
She drove her car slowly, listening to a song by Bread, entitled make it with you.
She could not forget the way he looked at her when he said good bye. She still could listen to his gentle voices while saying "Good Bye dear.."

If only she could change the things, but again, it was just a dream and a hope.
The sky was getting darker, the wind blew harder, the road was more crowded, and she pictured his face on his mind, hoping he would never leave her even in a second.

she talked to herself.
"Love, it hurts and cheers me at the same time, uuuhhffhh.."
Then She drove her Pajero faster, and wished to get home soon.
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That night, She could not close her eyes, her thought flew to him.
Suddenly her cellphone rang,She smiled widely, and picked up the call. It was from her lover, telling her that he had arrived safe and sound in his lovely house.
They spent only few minutes to chat and then slept.

Outside the window, the air was like whispering the name of love.
The stars shone brightly, as they were trying to make people feel better.
The sky was very dark, but the stars made it so beautiful that seemed gave everyone who saw it a great happiness.
They were like hopes and dreams that wandered around the world.

The earth spun slowly, time went by as everybody closed his/her eyes.
Up above the sky, angels singing a lullaby for every soul who is in love.


(to be continued)

This Is It.. part 3

She opened the door of her car, and took a white box.
She checked out the box, smiled, and then walked back to her lover.

The man could only look at her gently, and said: "don't say you bought chocolate muffin!"
She smiled back at him and answered: "this is the first cake that made you mad at me, and this is also my favourite cake, loved by someone that I always expect to love it, so.. you want it or not?"

Again He smiled, and hugged her arm: "I don't know what you are thinking,of course I want this muffin, who doesn't?"
He took one of the cakes and got the spoon to eat it.
she was surprised because she just realised that the way he ate the muffin, was exactly the same with his father.
She shouted: "wait... I never pay attention to this.. it's like waking up from a strange dream!!"
He said quietly: "what's wrong dear? you are so ... you know.. different today, is everything okay? is there any problem?"

The young girl, or the young woman, did not say anything.
The wind blew her hair softly.
The man held her hand and asked: "Honey, answer me.. are you okay?"
She smiled and said: "yeah, I'm fine, it's just, all this time I never realise that you ate that cake just like daddy"
He exclaimed: "What?!? ow come on, everybody eats this cake in the same way"
She argued: "no dear.. it's not exactly the same.."
He added: "ok then, so what's the problem? you know.. you are so surprised as someone who just saw a ghost or something"
She smiled, then answered: "well, I always think.. that none does something, I mean exactly the same thing like him"

The man kissed her shoulder, and said wisely: "it's not a problem then, don't give me that look please..."
She stared at him and smiled.
"okay, I'm sorry, I'm just not ready to stay away from you"
The man held her hand tightly.
"Look, I've told you, don't think in a negative way, we used to keep in touch miles away, why suddenly.. you are acting like a little girl?"

She said nothing.
The man could only gaze at her, then put his hand around her hip.
"Honey, please.. you are not alone, I'll be around, though not physically beside you, we can talk on the phone, we can text each other, okay?"
She smiled bitterly.
She looked at him sharply, and words came out of her lips.
"I don't know,it's just.. so hard without you by my side.. I mean, I still have a hope that there is another day for us"
He interrupted: "of course... Please.. let us keep on our faith together, I just have leave to take care of my business, so.. ?"
She smiled and said: "hmm... tough... but ... I know we can do this"
He hugged her body tightly,smiled, and kissed her head.
"that's my girl.."

Deep inside her heart, she prayed to God.
"God, after years separating us, Thou let us meet each other, Please let me be always beside him. Years ago, I could only imagine this moment, and now Thou make it real, it's not a dream, not my imagination, please.. please.. listen to my prayer..I've been up and down having this feeling, God..I'm begging Thou.."

This Is It.. part 2

She waited for about 30 minutes.
She could only smile happily when her beloved prince came, smiled wisely, and kissed her head.
She could not stop smiling.

when this gorgeous man sat, she handed a box of present for him.
He looked surprised,but kept smiling and then said: "What is this? it's not my birthday"
She smiled while gazing at his face calmly, and answered: "well, I just want to give you something before you leave"
The man kissed her head once more, and replied: "Honey, you should not do this"
His hand rubbed her hair tenderly, and added:"we will meet again, please don't worry about me"
She smiled, and said: "well, I've been expecting to give something to someone I love, and it's you, so, that's why I do this"

(Silence...)

She asked: "do you like it?"
He answered: "of course I like it.. it's just so wow!I never thought you would prepare this surprise"
She Laughed loudly and begged: "would you please wear it for me?"
Without thinking he put the white shirt on his body,and said: "I like the fabric.. and it's white, I like white, I also like the style, you really know me dear, thank you"

She could not stop staring and smiling at him. She did not think that he would love the gift, because it was just a shirt.
He was like an angel, so handsome, and looked so wise in that white shirt.
Suddenly she remembered something, she held his hand, and exclaimed: "OOOPPS!! I forget something.."
He looked at her in a puzzle,then said: "what's wrong dear?"
She answered: "I bought you something... "
He was bewildered: "something what?"
She smiled: "I had bought our favorite cake, and I think I've left in the car, wait up, I'll get it for you"

Without saying a word she ran quickly to her car.
The man only could smile and shook his head.

This Is It.. part 1

She smiled at her own self,while still looking her face at the mirror.
she stood up, and combed her hair, and smiled once more.

She put the jacket on her body, and grabbed her cellphone that laid on the bed.
she walked out of the room, and wore her high heels.
She went to the garage, and found that she left her car's key in the bedroom, so she walked in back, and took the key hanging on her cupboard.


In the garage;

She opened the car's door,and got in to the seat behind the wheel.
She drove her car out of the garage, and headed to a place where she could meet someone that she had expected to see.

1 hour later..

She arrived at a restaurant, a very comfy Java restaurant, where each table has its own privacy, it is completed with a bamboo wall as its room divider, and every visitor could pick his/her favourite table without any interruption.

She spotted a cozy place and sat there, waiting her prince of her heart.

This Is It..

A young girl stared at her own face in front of the mirror.

A flash of memories woke her up from a long day dreaming, or may be it is better called as morning dreaming.





(to be continued)